I have never been very good about sticking to something once I’ve started it. I’m not sure if it’s my own nature or if it’s something I learned growing up. Either way, I aim to stop that now.

Previously on this site, I focused either on making money or on trying to solve everyone else’s issues by telling them how to live. I won’t be doing that any more. It seems preferable and far more sensible to work on my own self-development, to hold myself accountable in a public forum.

First and foremost, I need to work on the direction my life has been taking. Due in small part to unfortunate situations and, by a large majority, my own mistakes, I have worked a lot of odd jobs and dead-end jobs. As it stands right now, I am an unskilled worker in my mid 20s without a penny to my name. Debt stands far higher than anything I own in terms of assets or cash holdings.

I have figured out what I want to do in my life, but right now I have to work hard to make enough money to live and pay off debt before I can even start on that part of it, officially. I cannot afford to go back to university, and being a three time dropout, I’d like to try it in another country. So, I work in commercial landscaping. It isn’t a lot, but by next spring I should be free of debt and have some money in the bank. At that point I will see if I can get into university in S Korea or Europe somewhere.

As for now, while I know I can’t become a full-fledged software engineer in the time before I (hopefully) go to uni, I plan on becoming at least an application developer. I use and understand Androids far better than any iPhone platform. As such, it is my intent to learn how to program in Java and then use books on app development to become a developer for Android. (I will admit that the world market is also far larger in Androids, so I hope that by prioritizing this first I might actually make some money by app dev in the future.)

Also, ever since I was in Junior High, it has been difficult to motivate myself to exercise. I was forced for many years due to extracurricular activities, jobs, and the military. However, now having been a civilian for well over a year and becoming soft and weak, I want very much to be as fit as I was in the Army. Hell, I want to go beyond that and be better than I ever was before. In light of that, there will be a weekly post each Saturday detailing my efforts toward fitness for that previous weak, successes and failures both.

One thing I’ve learned in my adult life is that life ain’t easy. Still, I don’t want to give up on it. I don’t want to become obese and attending a job I hate for the rest of my life. I’ve made a lot of mistakes in the past years (sometimes it seems I only ever made mistakes) and I struggle against falling into depression because of it. But I aint ready to give into that dark abyss just yet.

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